Being honest with everyone...Why have I been gone so long?

Hello my readers,

Hope you are all well and having a great week/weekend.

I know from the title you are thinking to yourself, what is she going on about? Why has she been gone so long I thought we were going to get more blogs this year? I will try to make this sort so I don't sound so miserable but I thought this might help someone going through this like I am right now and for them to know you aren't alone in this and you always have to remember it will go and it will get better.

I know when I write the blogs for you that I make a point of trying things out for yourself and making sure you don't think that what I write in these is what you should 100% go by.

I just want to sit here and give you a little insight to my life and what is really like for someone that suffers with eczema, I know this isn't for all people and it might come across as self pity.

But for right now, my skin is hating me and I'm hating it.

That might sound a little dramatic to some but honestly that is how I feel about it, when it is like this at the moment and I'm not going to be posting photos of what my eczema is like as I am self conscious about it and I don't like the way it makes me feel about it.

I am normally happy and bubbly but when my skin decides it doesn't want to play ball then I just don't like being seen by people without makeup on, I don't like having my own fiancé seeing me without something on my face, it sounds silly but it's true. I don't like how red my skin goes, I don't like how dry my skin goes no matter what I do to it, I can put hydrating masks on, my hydrating skin care, drinking loads of water. Nothing I do seems to help it. When it is on my arms and legs that is different as I know I can hide that and only I know it's there. But when it's on my face and now on the backs of my hands places that I can't hide, then I know it will stress me out until I get rid of it.

But if you read my 'knowing your skin' then you would know stress for me is a major trigger for my skin to play up. Yes I can say I am stressed with work (which who isn't) and also I have a very important exam coming up in the next couple of weeks that I really don't want to fail and I have been studying really hard for it but I still worry and stress about it. I will keep you all updated on how I do.

Anyway my eczema hasn't been this bad for years and I'm talking back to when I was in my early 20's so I think my body decided that it was over due for a hissy fit as I call it. But with the winter weather as well it really isn't doing me much good with it becoming so dry and sore and soon as it starts to heal it will start to itch so I will scratch and I will be back to square one again.

I do try to tell myself everyday things will get better and things will go eventually but until this test is out the way I don't things will calm down for a little while and then once it is done then the healing process will begin.

I have been trying a new body oil as I heard that it can help with really dry skin and it might help out more with keeping it hydrated. Well I put this oil on and my legs were on fire and they haven't stopped being itchy for a week, I have washed it off but nothing sorted it out so I do have eczema on my legs as well which isn't fun either.

I had to go to the doctors a couple of weeks ago for my watery eyes as they were just getting worse and worse, so they told me that because I suffer with eczema that I will just suffer from dry eyes and I just have to keep adding drops when my eyes are getting bad. So that's a new thing I will deal with, so if any of you suffer with that then go get some drops it does help and get some gel drops for night time that has helped me out loads. My eyes are only bad in the winter going from a heated house to outside in the cold then going into work with a gas fire on all day just dries my eyes out loads so the drops are really helping me out, but I'll need to do it all through summer time too.

Well I think this is enough self pity for one blog post. I will get everything back to normal, I have to say I haven't been trying anything new lately as my skin has been so terrible (for me) I have got some posts coming out in the next couple of weeks that I managed to get done before my skin decided that it doesn't like anything.

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Hope this wasn't too much of a downer blog post for everyone, once my skin is back to what I call normal then I will be trying new products and getting back to a more positive blog .

See you all in the next one! X

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